arh! you guys i dont even know where to end and where to start! i just need to come out with my thoughts right now (i dont care if anyone reads it - it just need to come out!) first of all: God, i miss the states/ california/ los angeles! it makes me so depressed thinking about it - i miss it so much and i just cant go overthere (because of school and stuff...) but i really wish i could. i feel stuck! i feel like i cant be myself and i cant open up before im home. i know it sounds so weird (actually very very weird, like a snob - i know) but i really dont feel home in copenhagen - i dont feel like people are getting me and i dont wanna hang out with alot of people. its like almost every day i just got home from school and sitting on my computer searching on pics of usa and listing to american music (i know! almost every music is amercan) its like i cant enjoy thinks and be real happy before im overthere (: eventhough i havent try living in california, i feel like its my home - and im waiting to get home. these day im so mad and i regret so much that i didnt went to high school (!) really why? why? i have so many opportunities and i actually know alot of people i could have stayed at, but....? im a fool(!) my dream is to live the american dream - play soccer, baseball and football as a normal teenager - go to highschool and have cool friends!! really - i could have chosen everything - and then i chose to stay in denmark (and i cant go next year because i have to go in high school - and when i get of high school its to late to go in high school.. i think i made the mistake of my life!! and i will regret it for the rest of my life. i just miss everything overthere. i miss the streets, the beach - the people - the relaxing life - just everything. its like im waiting for a plane to go! but i dont know when im going. soon i hope!! actually i got 60$ for my birthday (my parents gave me - thats maybe a sign and means that we soon are going. i really cant stand it!! i need to try something new. ): its so sad. its like i cant enjoy things in denmark - i feel so stuck! i only listen real l.a music to make me feel home. i should post some songs. (you'll probably dont like them, but it just mean something speciel to me) all that gangster rap music means alot to me - cause thats a part of los angeles. really! and i dont know why, but lil wayne, t-pain and that kind of guys are my inspiration. my role-models - because they are real l.a guys but not like gangster guys like 50 cent and the game - but they are theeeee l.a guys! ++ lil mama, nicki minaj, ciara are just like the guys!! too cool and just something that reminds my of l.a - also chris brown - but in another way. im so sorry for spamming you with my thoughts. i just thought they had to come out - and now ive realized how much im writen - my danish essays are not even this long (haha) - see ya (: ill post some of my fave music now - the only thing pissing my off is that i cant post songs from my itunes libery, so i need to search on youtube and post it! ): that sucks . and takes to much time.
now when ive been writing this much, there are probably alot of mistakes, grammatical - just live with it * i know you can !
sorry
1. lil wayne: 3 peat 2. lil mama ft. chris brown & tpain: shawty get loose 3. plies ft. tpain: shawty (this is my fave song - and i know its gonna be the rest of my life (almost) it reminds me of everything in the us) 4. lil wayne ft. tyga: california love 5. ciara ft. gorilla zoe ft. t-pain: go girl 6. lil wayne (my fave artist): we like her too ft. alot of people 7. t-pain: buy u a drink 8. lil wayne: sky is the limit 9. t.pain ft. chris brown: freeze (a very happy song (-:) 10. bow wow ft. chris brown: slam 11. lil wayne: alphabeat bitches (: - and i could continue, but that will be another day (: i love all those songs. do yourself a favor and listing to them (: THANKSand of course!: i love JB's music (:
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